Your language learner identity

When I  was a children, I never think about to live on the other country. But now I have to try learn English when I live America. I’ve learn English on high school in China, but I also think English is difficult for me. Maybe grammar is different with Chinese, or vocabulary is hard to remember I always confuse even I know the meaning of something. But now I think I got more better then before I come America. I  can use simple words talk to people, and I can understand what they say, but I know I have to learn more English, because English is a international language, we can speak English everywhere.
Beside English I also want to learn Cantonese( one kid language of Chinese), because I have many friend from Hong Kong, and here have many Cantonese on China down . And when you have more language you can find work easier. On the China down many company require have to speak English an Cantonese.
My native language is Chinese. Usually I use Chinese every time even in America. When something I need help, I ’m accustomed  to look for Chinese guy. I always avoid to talk with English speaker, because I know I don’t speak English very well. And I never know how I can speak Chinese just like I don’t know how we can eat or drink, but I really like Chinese much more than English, because when I say something use Chinese I never consider what I said, just like a part of my body, I want to use I just use never mind. But when I say English to somebody I have to consider what I want to express.  But I really want to improve my English level, so I have to speed more time to study and talk to people.